I miss creating art work. I miss having the urge to always create. Since coming to college and living on my own, I have lost this love for creating things. I never carry my camera anymore. When I was younger I had it everywhere I went. Always inside my "man bag" and always ready to photograph something. I have no drive to create anything new. All I think about is school, work, money, bills and weight. Art never passes through my mind anymore. I need to move. I am looking for jobs right now. I hope I can find work outside of the UP and move somewhere that is a culture driven place. I want to be surrounded by art, music, and literature again. I want to feel inspired to create all the beauty in the world. I want to forget that I am adult. I want to be free again.